The feelings you feel when your whole world stops and you can not catch your breath. Breathe in, and out.
Statement of Purpose, Accountability, and Healing.
I am writing this to be understood, because understanding is the foundation of trust. You have created systems where “we” are accountable to “you,” yet there is no hierarchy in livelihood. We are equal. We are meant to treat one another with kindness, respect, and honesty. When something is unclear, we ask questions. We disclose information. Transparency is essential for trust, especially for individuals like me who have been harmed by systems meant to protect them.
I did not trust you. At times, I even began to lose trust in my own mother, who has been an exceptional parent. That is the level of damage systems can cause.
I have witnessed systems create monsters instead of healing people, criminals instead of citizens, exploitation instead of accountability. These systems are fueled by dirty money, power, and silence. If you cannot understand solutions that could save millions of lives, solutions grounded in research, ethics, and lived experience, then you are part of the problem.
I have researched this work for years. My research has been approved by the North Star Board Review. I operate within the law. I remain accountable to oversight. Safety and security are my highest priorities. HIPAA has always been respected in my work. Yet I have repeatedly witnessed others violate ethics, protocols, leadership, contracts, and even the law, often without consequence.
I have been hurt, abandoned, and left fighting for my life while others turned away and chased what was shiny instead of what was right. My background was scrutinized without context, despite the fact that it was intentionally shaped to expose those who abuse power and neglect care.
I have seen my name forged. My data erased. I have seen lies told by those claiming to serve others, while I had people verifying their actions. This is why strict risk management matters, especially when offering second and third chances. Accountability must exist alongside compassion.
Healing By Objectives is an evolutionary, evidence-informed model that works. Even when participants dislike me personally, the structure teaches them to stay accountable, avoid harmful behavior, and correct errors. The results speak for themselves.
The core mission is simple: implement trauma-informed care into the criminal justice system.
I have created an apprenticeship program for individuals exiting incarceration, offering a legitimate pathway into healing work. By completion, lived-experience professionals earn four certifications, alongside rigorous training in ethics, boundaries, de-escalation, resources, and real-world exposure. This is how we transform pain into purpose.
I want people to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I always have, even when I wanted to die, and still struggle daily due to the torture my family and I endured. I could choose revenge. I could create more harm. I have seen how easily that happens. But I choose the light, every time.
I never committed the crimes I was accused of. Those false claims destroyed my future—despite my education, licenses, businesses, and properties. Meanwhile, those in power who behave unethically remain untouched. What lesson does that teach a child? Hypocrisy breeds harm.
I refuse to live by “do as I say, not as I do.” Integrity matters.
I have seen theft, sexual violence, murder, exploitation, and corruption, often protected by silence. I have lived many lives: survivor, partner, educator, artist, researcher, advocate. I am Native, mystic, LDS, a bridge between worlds. Trauma redirected my path, but it also clarified my purpose: to stop the loss of life by healing people instead of discarding them.
Triggers don’t disappear. Memories surface through smells, sounds, and moments I never asked for. Yet I keep going. Much of this work has been self-funded. Grants and donations are scarce. If I stop, the burden shifts to already-overwhelmed systems—and more people fall through the cracks.
What happens when the same people enforcing the law are secretly contributing to harm? Confusion. Distrust. Collapse.
People are judged for being different—poor, unclean, mentally ill, culturally unfamiliar. That judgment is the disease. If someone seeks help, they deserve dignity. We are not better than them; we are them.
Bad behavior should never be rewarded. Good work should be recognized. Saying “I don’t know” should be normalized. Laziness and indifference are spreading faster than care.
We need libraries, nature, recycling programs, community centers, wellness spaces, places where people can reconnect and shine.
I am a survivor. A warrior. Education and love are how we get through this together. Healing is not optional anymore, it is necessary.
JBO 